hi all..
a lots of sorry from me coz im not updating my blog for long time.. if im not mistaken my last blog is on valentine's day aite?? i thought my blog website got some problem to sign in when i've checked everyday in my office.. but my server at office is sucks!!!! AArgghhh!!! Damn! i can't write anything.. a lots of thing i want to share but this fucking server at my office ruin my mood to write.. anyway.. im still can do this..

Color of Life

Life is not about the way u find a happiness. Once u lost other happiness u get another happiness. Life is not about to decide our choice or not to have any choices. Obviously, life is not same like a film. Quite, screaming, crying, laughing and hiding doesn't make u can run away from the pain that u feel it. The important of life is not just ur objective but is a about ur journey. Dare to through it or dare to letting go...


* Lately, my mind just can't thinking well. My life just spontaneously happen. No steady future thinking. A lots of people, friend n everyone who take a good care of me doesn't agree with what i've decided for my journey life. When i started a word to say about what i'm gonna do in my life after this.

My journey life just go on spontaneously without any plan. I know what words came out from their big mouth. Everyone give the same words, same thinking. But it doesn't matter for me and it doesn't mean i don't care about what they've said. Just take a positive side, probably and absolutely they're right.

In this moment, im really happy what my life just go through and bring me as far. Even i have faces too many problem and obstacle to get what i wanna do. Thanx god always beside me. I hope u guys still with me too. Still standing besides me. Pray for me. For the good and great thing...

I love all people who used to have in my life coz u guys had colered my life from colorless to wonderful color i ever had..

THANKS AGAIN FOR ALLOF U!

Valentine is just around the corner. I bet u all the couple will bz planning their dates on the special day. For sure, they will having a great diner, sweet gift, lust kisses with a romantic mode, wonderful place and for extra credit, lovely song...

I have something in my mind that i have been thinking quite long when someone propose me to be his special in his life... So many question i ask for my self..

Sometimes, the person we love always make us sick. It realize us how hard to find a real love from a person who really love us with all of their heart. When u find some one u think he/she is the person u love, does u u give all of ur trust and love to him?

* My friends bought me a ring yesterday when i company him to survey a place n gift for a valentine's date. He bought it without my attention. Actually this is the 1st time someone give me a ring and honestly i never wear a ring in my life.. huhuhu.. pity me.. But for me this is a sweet thing, sweet gift from a friends eventhough we always fight, argue something we don't like to share. I'm almost tears my drop in front of him but it never happen.. Fuhh!! Almost.. Damn!! I never celebrate Valentine's day in my life. So, is not about celebration for love couple, couple in love, married o what eva but this is for a sweet friends too.. Anyway, thanx a lot _ _ _ _ coz bring me to life n treat me as a girl.. HAHHAHA..

Put Urself in 'My Shoes'

1. Still young need to study but very passion and lust about something i love to do

2. Love to try and do all the things i like but only half way i didn't complete it

3. Want to complete all the things that i've done but something/someone trying to stop u
from done it

4. Always worry about my next step will destroy me

5. Trying to make everyone happy but they didn't realize, understand and appreciate it

6. Always motivate other people but is too hard to motivate ourself

7. Taking care of my heart friends but they always keep my heartbreak

8. Be a friend for long time and at last he/she go with other friends that he/she just met

9. Confuse with myself, confuse with what happens around me. The people, the environment
and the weather

10.Doubtful about our feelings and pretending nothing happen

11. Holding hands with him but kissing with other guy

12. He always has a story to tell me but i haven't a story to tell him

13. Not really sure about what i want but very sure about what i don't want

14. People always misunderstood about me

15. He knows me well rather than me know myself

16. Don't know how to describe myself but i have a friends can describe me

17. I rather be anything but ordinary

18. The truth is i don'tlike them i have to like them

19. People loves me more than i love myself

20. Sometimes i have more than attitude

21. People can see, i have everything around me but the truth is i have nothing

22. People around me always makes me crazy

23. They talk too much but doing nothing

24. My life journey is always spontaneously happen

25. Sometimes i need a space and private time to spend

26. I have too many different attitude and makes people confuse to understand

27. Sometimes, something bad i have to explore and feel it to make my life great and worth it

28. I live for myself. What happen to me is just spontaneously happen

29. I draw myself and people colored it

30. I don't know how to show that i care and love people very much


Life cruel? Life beautiful? Life sucks? Life greats? Life is a sum of all ur choices. What's ur view in ur life...